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November 06, 2006
Monday Memories
Sometimes I like to think back when my husband, Bill, and I fell in love. I have been married twice before Bill. I first met him when I was taking care of his mother, Eva, through home health. When I first met him I was a little leary of him, because the agency told me to leave my purse in the car and talk to them as little as possible. So I just went in and took care of Eve and when he asked if I wanted any coffee, I said no, I have other clients to take care of. This is a small town that I live in. So people gossip and make up things, and that is what they did in Bill's case. I'm not used to or like gossip and being from NY, you didn't get in your neighbor's business.
The next day the agency called me and wanted to know what I did at the Long's, because Bill had asked if I could come back and be his mother's aide. I said I don't know what I did and that I would go back.

The next time I went there I stayed and had coffee w/Bill, his dad, and mom. Bill told me he knew right away from the way I dressed and the way I talked that I was from NY.
Well, he would come to my house and fix things like electronics. We started going to garage sales together. He told me one time that all the nice girls were taken and he noticed my wedding band on my finger right away. But he never made any improper moves on me.

To make a long story short I fell in love w/him. I would talk on the phone to him every night and it felt like he was my husband, without the imitate stuff and that husband at the time just cared about that stuff instead of me. Bill and I went to a flea market in Minot, ND. That night I told him of my feelings. And he said we felt the same way but I was married.
Well, nothing sexual happened that weekend w/us. We went on just feeling in love w/each other. Then we went to another flea market and got imitate. When we got home I moved out and got a divorce and Bill and I got married.

Being a Christian, it was really hard for me emotionally. There was a lot of fear and things about hell. If I never of met Bill, I know in my heart someday when the kids were older I would leave my husband. I never intended to leave him because of another man.

I am in contact w/my ex-husband. We were both deceived by Satan thinking that the other did not love each other.. But that is in the past. He is remarried now.
I will never regret marring Bill and I still love him w/all my heart
Some may judge me, but you never know what will happen in your life.
 

Comments:

Sometimes, there can be some love, but it's not the right kind of love. The big love that's ment to be. When that love comes, you know it's the right one and it can't be resisted just because it's so RIGHT.

Wonderful memories!

Funny, my Monday Memories is about love too :-)
 

Given my life I am not one to judge others. What is in ones heart and how they share that with others is more important to me! The one to judge you will one day and until then don't beat yourself up or let any others. I like to believe that the forgiveness part is what makes God so wonderful!

Great sharing Gail! Thanks for visiting mine!
 

I don't feel the guilt anymore. I do believe that God knew my situation as he does everyone else's.
 

I am so so so glad that you married Bill. I bet he requested you take care of Eve because he could sense you weren't like the rest of the people in Sidney.

I am sorry it couldn't have been better for you and John; you didn't communicate very well. You tried very hard to make that marriage work... dinner ready every night, you worked 3 jobs, always cleaned the house... very "wifey", but you were not happy. When was the last time you made spaghetti, lol?

Maybe you could blog about that. No one ever beleives me. Its too bad that you didn't hook up with Bill until I was (supposed to be) out of the house.
 
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