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: Name: Gail; Location: Montana, United States

Hi, I'm Gail, a 54 year old female. I'm married with 3 grown up children Dawn, Nathanial, and Laura. My husband's name is Bill. I have two black labs; Hogan and Murduck who were both strays. 3 cats; Kylie, Noa (who we call blackie}she also was a stray and Salem who we inherited from Dawn. Two cockitiels, Jorge and Max and a ringtailed dove who drives us crazy named Moses. I love music, exercising and playing Luxor. I miss my children and grandchildren. Dawn and her husband Chantz, children Austin, Tessa, Bruce, and Brandy live in Texas. Nathanial lives in upstate NY with his wife Margaret and their three children, Jacob and the twins Elizabeth and Lucus. Laura is going to college in Ihaca, NY. She is working on her masters for speech pathology. And Bill and I are stuck here in Montana. My brother Dave and father-in-law Jason lives with us. I work in the Human Services field working with Developmental Disabilities. I'm a born-again christian.

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August 31, 2006

Finally coming out of the small hole in the back of my mind

It's been 3 long hellish weeks since I've been fired. I have crawled into my head. Way back to my safety zone where nobody can reach me. Oh, I'm here, go through the motions, talk and eat. But I'm so zoned out. I get these little mental meltdowns from time to time. It is the only way I can deal with life. I stay in bed for days and days. Slowly I come out of it. Go out for a walk one day. Couple of days later go out to eat. Then bam! Back to darkness. But I'm slowly coming out. I'm a little tired today. I went to the therapist today. She said when I think a negative thought- say to my self "Is that true? If it is not true then to replace it. Did you ever notice that therapist also can be said "The Rapist" Sometimes I think they try to rape our minds.

Comments:

Just do what your therapist said and think positive thoughts. Throw out those negative ones Ma!

# posted by

Rowan Dawn : 8:43 PM

Am so sorry to hear about your job. I know it's a difficult process to go through but with God in the center of all this, you can surely get out of it.

Take Care and God Bless!

# posted by

Viamarie : 6:24 AM

I pray that in time this will pass for you! The way they treated you was just terrible. I agree with Dawn and just listen to your therapist and think only good thoughts! I hope you have a great week this week!

# posted by

FruitfulSpirit : 7:38 AM

Mom - I love you. I want you to feel better. Call me if you feel down. I will listen or cry with you (I can't help but cry when someone else is crying!!) Call me if you feel happy too. :)

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